Friday, June 24, 2011

Let's get personal

Hello, oh spookily inclined!

Okay, today's post is going to be kinda different. Not make-up/clothing related, but infinitely more important.

I opened up my medicine cabinet the other day after a shower to put on deodorant. I have a lot of my necessities there- make-up remover, face wash, Neosporin, etc. There are a few things in there that I don't use (aka "need") anymore, but I still keep them to make sure I always remember.

First, the photo:

I don't want to get into all the gory details, but I'll just say one thing- this is NOT how you help a 9 year old girl who lost her father get better. Nevermind the shot glass I use to rinse out my mouth to the side...

You're a child. Your life is your family (this was the days before technology and the interwebz were big), and when you lose a piece of that reality forever, you NEED to cry. You need to freak out. And not sleep. And cry and be silent and be still and eat a lot and not eat at all and write until your fingertips ache and think so hard until you pass out every night.

This is called healing. This is called coping. The above photo is not.

Don't get me wrong, I know that my mother did what she thought was best. That's her name on the prescription bottle- I was a minor and my mom picked up the pills from the pharmacy.

I went through a lot of pain, but to this day I still feel... robbed.

You can't cry. You can't do much of anything. You sit there and stare at the television until your eyes finally close and you sleep to not dream. I feel that, after my dad died, I was robbed of a childhood, and I blame the above photo for that. I don't know if my life changed because my father passed on, or because these medications changed the way I think. I honestly don't know, but I always feel like the prescriptions were unnecessary. Sometimes the cure is worse than the actual disease, I guess.

Don't get me wrong, people DO need medication and I understand that. But a nine year old girl? No.

I have my cure right here. <3!

Goth Make-up

Hello dark ones!

So, I was doing my make-up the other day and started looking through photos on Google. I feel like I get stuck in a rut with my make-up routine sometimes, so I start looking through many articles or photos just to see what I like.

One of the bloggers I frequent that I LOVE is Adora Bat Brat. She's super-uber-z0mg gorgeous and I love her make-up designs. Check her out!

She has this way of drawing her eyes that doesn't look like a child with an eyeliner pencil going to town on their face. Her designs are elegant and beautiful, but I can't really do that kind of stuff. I'd LIKE to, but my hands start shaking whenever I attempt some sort of elegant eye make-up design.

I usually do my make-up like this when I go to school (please excuse the fish face).

I usually put little crystals on the outer corner of my eyes. I just put a drop of eyelash glue on them, let them dry for a few seconds, and stick those suckers on. I also have a little patch that I bought from Joann's (4 for $1) that you're supposed to use on clothes, but I do the same eyelash glue thing and put it on my face. When I don't have time to do my make-up and just have eyeliner/mascara, I attempt to draw a heart on my face but it always looks like this at the end of the day.

I recently started drawing fake lashes on my lower lash line and, just a little ways down from the ends, I like to add little dots. In this next photo, you can see that lashes, but not the dots.

Smudged lipstick across your face isn't necessary, glitter melting on your neck? maybe...

I have this little obsession with dots now. I always wear stripes and never dots. I don't know why, but I feel weird when I wear dots, so I don't. This is my new way of doing make-up for the moment.

You could kinda see the dots on my brow bone and under my eye too, with a cat-eye liner winging up toward my brow. I love that purple lipgloss. Just purple enough to pass as "normal" and not as intense as my purple lipstick for those "normal" days. :3

What do you guys wear on your face? <3!